Women Against Women

Today, I had my 3rd Liberty shoot with Dimples & Daisies, I feel so liberated during and after these shoots AND my confidence is always elevated as well.

However, after my shoot and on the drive home, I started to think about how the day went and what I enjoyed most about today and for me, it was easy!

I am and have been for a long time someone who sits and takes in her surroundings and listens to figure out her place and then figure out where I fit in. Today, I did a lot of listening and do you know I what I heard? Women building each up, encouraging each other and just being kind and supportive. Do you know what that got me thinking?

Why Is This Not Normal?

We are all, as women, so insecure about everything, from the way we look right through to our careers, to how we raise our children and how we love our partners. Do you know why, its not because of our arch enemy The Man its because we are tearing each other down.

Why Are We Doing This?

Why as women has it become acceptable to question each other and judge each other? Why on earth cannot we not encourage and support each other? I have seen far too many women/girls/teens etc. judging others for the way they look, sound, dress etc. why does it matter?

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We need to learn to raise each other up and encourage each other and just be kind to one another. After all, dont we have enough to deal with in life, without knowing that our fellow women are ready to tear us down the minute they have the chance?

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Plot Twist!!!

When I first started writing this post, I thought my whole life was changing and it is but not as badly as I first thought! Initially just over a week ago told me he is going to be working away almost 5hrs away up north and that he would probably be home once a month, but wanted me to come up there or us meet in the middle.

When i found out, I was devastated, I felt like our relationship was on its way to the end and that I was going to lose the most important person in my life!

However, as always things do change and his boss has managed to find them work close to London, so now instead of not seeing him at all, I will get my weekends back with him & he will become a “weekend warrior”! This will only be potentially until Christmas, then he will be working in the west country, but still able to come home at weekends. So things aren’t as bad as they first imagined!

I am a massively independent person and enjoy my own company, so this time during the week I will have I am going to try and spend more time with my girlfriends. I am also going to use the times that I am seeing Matt as goals to hit a milestone in weight loss/dropping a dress size. I want to use the time constructively in the gym and focus 100% on dieting properly and focusing, Matt &I will tend to eat out quite a bit, but this will mean I get to save money as well.

I am fully aware that we aren’t the first couple to work like this and I am pretty sure we wont be the last, so I am gonna suck it up and deal with our change in circumstances the best I can! However, those of you that get to spend every night with your significant other or get to see them more than 2 days a week – don’t take it for granted, because you never know, once day it might all get taken out from under you!

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I’m Baaccck!

Good Evening Y’All!

Its been a while since I have posted on here and I would normally apologise, but I have been enjoying myself on holiday and recovering from my holiday then partying at the annual family party! I have crossed 2 things off my bucket list whilst I was gone, booked to do another & thought about getting rid of something else on the list!

Its all a bit crazy, but its been a good 3ish weeks away from blogging and I have had great fun! There are lots of things to share with you, but I think I will start off by sharing some photo’s from our holiday – there are over 2,000 and I don’t think you want to see them all!

In New York – https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10152736998341055.1073741838.501516054&type=1&l=f903de8dd5

In Indiana – https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10152737025441055.1073741839.501516054&type=1&l=32b85c16bd

I have to say I brought ALOT on holiday, some stuff for me & some stuff for others – I think I might do a blog post of all the things I have got that might be interesting to you! I will also admit that I gain 8lb whilst on holiday – I’m not ashamed to share it as I really let go and enjoyed it and made the most of the good food. I am back on plan now and trying to get in shape for Rome in August and my next adventure in April next year!

Well have fun looking at the photos and stay tuned for posts about the holiday within the next few days!

Love

Emma xxx

10 Years……

These photo’s was taken just over 10 years ago when we left school to go on study leave ready for our GCSE’s – which at that point were the most important things in our lives, they determined what we would be doing at college, what uni we were going to and at that stage I think we all probably thought what job we would end up doing. I stumbled across a memory book that a lot of people had written in a few weeks back and some of the words that they had written were lovely and its a shame that the friendships didn’t last. There was 4 of us (Katy, Jemma, Amy & Myself) that all lived close to each other and would find ourselves congregating at the local shops or on the grass verge of one of the corners of road, we never drifted too far from home and would often end up back at Amy’s (she had older brothers with good looking friends!) and there was no arguing that I can remember we just used to have a laugh! Back then I literally had zero responsibilities, no commitments and I was just living in the moment, I was close to quite a few people and we literally all lived in each others pockets for the last year at school and most of the first year at college….

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College started in the September of 2004 and I had decided to do a BTEC in Media in a local college where none of my friends were going. I remember at the time not being too bothered as I was sure I would remain friends with them anyway and I was never one to do something that everyone else was doing! I met some wonderful people during my time at college and I really did have a blast. College is where I met my best friend and actually apart from my family, the one person that has been a solid person in my live over the last 10 years! We would just get the train to college and maybe meet up in breaks as we were on the same media course, I left 1 year before her and strangely enough we didn’t drift apart, we kept in touch and ended up doing some random trips, holidays and multiple days out shopping! I also made a really good friend Becky, who when we finished our course went to work at Disney in Florida for 1 year, it was sad to see her go and unfortunately we did drift apart – but she was a good friend through those 2 years. Unfortunately, whilst I was making new friends I was drifting away from old friends, our interests started to change and I found that I didn’t fit in with their new circle of friends. I was lucky and still managed to keep contact with Katy and Amy on and off and to this day, Amy still lives up the road and we chat occasionally and myself & Matt have been to stay with Katy in Plymouth and whenever she is home I always try to meet up with her if I can! I also kept in touch with Mike, who during school we weren’t really too close, but over the last year or so when he started “going out” with 2 of my best mates at the time and he actually ended up becoming a really good mate and even though we don’t talk too often now, I would hope that if I needed him that he would still be there for me as I would him. During my college years, I was also working part time at a coffee shop and a night club – I love both my jobs and the people in both places were fantastic, I learnt so much from everyone!

My 18th Birthday Night Out With The Girls From College & My Then Best Friend

My 18th Birthday Night Out With The Girls From College & My Then Best Friend

Mike & I On My 19th

Mike & I On My 19th

One Of Mine & Steph's Holiday Adventures

One Of Mine & Steph’s Holiday Adventures

College finished and I started working full time, as I mentioned I kept in touch with Becky & Steph and would still occasionally talk to some of my friends from school, but I wont lie as people went off to uni and I stayed at home, I again lost touch with people and I was working in an older environment so I found myself unable to make any new friends, my weight also increased and I was becoming miserable. When I headed to Indiana in 2007 to stay with my godparents for the first time, I made a decision in those 2 weeks to look for a new job, in a younger environment with room for progression. I was lucky enough to find and be offered a job quite quickly and started working in my role in the July. I was cautious at first to make new friends as it had been a while since I had really put myself out there, but I met 3 girls that really took me under their wings and for a while we had great fun and went out a lot and partied and I was losing weight and having fun. For the first time I was earning a good wage with prospects of moving onwards and upwards, I brought a brand new car – it was a 5 door and I remember my mum asking me if I was sure, the finance was over 5 years and I remember thinking (at 19!) that in 5 years I will probably be married and have a kid, so I will need 5 doors and a decent size boot for the buggy…..

Having Fun In America!

Having Fun In America!

One Of Our Many Nights Out!

One Of Our Many Nights Out!

Unfortunately, I got made redundant in the April before I turned 20, I got made redundant – in the last 10 years from leaving school this is the one vivid memory where I can remember exactly how I felt, the panic, the worry. I had literally brought a new car 6 months previously, I had no idea how I was going to pay my finance, lucky we were given a good deal and I managed to find some temporary work before I got another full time job (funnily enough where I still am today), which I thought to myself, I will stay here until the market gets back to normal and I can go back into commercial mortgages….how wrong was I! I really landed on my feet in the job I am in now, the company is great the people that I work with are fantastic and I have progressed further than I ever thought or want to at the beginning! Not even a year after joining I decided that I was going to go on holiday to stay with my godparents again and I am glad I did, I had a fantastic time and cant wait to go back in a few days time! At that point in my life I was in what I thought was a loving relationship, but looking back now I would tell my 20 year old self that I was wasting my time in fact 6 months of my life “seeing” someone that I thought loved me back! what a waste! But about 2 months after I realise he was a waste of space, Matt got in contact with me and the rest is history…..

Now this blog post started its life this afternoon when I was talking with Heather at work and we were simply saying how different at 16 we thought our lives would be. If I am honest, at 16 I expected my soon to be 26 year old self married, with her own home and probably either pregnant or have a baby and a good career. Realistically, I have only just properly started saving for a mortgage, I still live at home, yes I have a stable relationship but as far as I know we are not close to getting engaged or married and I certainly haven’t had a baby OR pregnant!

So to all those youngsters that are leaving school this year….don’t expect too much out of the next 10 years….life has a funny way of taking you down the path it wants you to go on, take a chance and enjoy the bumps in the road, you will learn so much from them. Don’t be upset if those close to you today don’t last the next 10 years, there will be something’s that they just cant support you through and others you will find that you have different priorities or morals as you grow individually. There will be people that come along that are unexpected and that will end up meaning more to you than you ever thought they would. Just enjoy the next 10 years….because I am sure the next 10 that I have to look forward to will be full of even more adventures that I cant even begin to imagine!

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Time To Knuckle Down……

Mum – if you are going to read this one, I wouldn’t because you get stroppy every time I mention a countdown to our holiday!

For everyone else – me & my family fly to NYC in 60 something days! That is 9 more weigh in’s and numerous gym sessions! I would love to be a 14 top and bottom before we go or at least hit 12st 7lb, I would love to be able to lose 1lb a week that would get me to nearly 12st! So I have started going to the gym in the morning and making sure I eat breakfast, I am trying to control my syns and try to ensure I make the right choices when eating out.

I have suddenly realised I don’t have long till holiday and I want to feel comfortable in shorts – I will get there I just need to work hard for the next few weeks.

I did a Pole Dancing Fitness class earlier this week and oh my word – it is sooo much harder than you can ever imagine! I was a bit nervous at first, however I got speaking to a member of the class who was really friendly and made me feel at ease and when we all started working with the poles, I looked around and there was women of all shapes, sizes & ages which really made me feel comfortable. I managed to do a couple of moves, but I have definitely found a fun way to exercise and I will definitely be going back! However I have to say, I have been aching all over ever since!

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Beauty Is In The Eye Of The Beholder

Tonight I would like to share with you something that unless you know me personally you won’t have any idea about. I was diagnosed with PCOS when I was 17, this diagnosis came after my mum & I watching a medical programme and being able to connect with 1 big symptom of PCOS……

Hirsutism or in simpler terms, excess hair

I first started noticing excess hair on my neck and chin when I was about 16 after my periods had really settled in after a few years, at first it didn’t overly bother me and it is something other women in my family have and I just thought it was the norm. However, seeing other girls my age not having this excess began to bother me. I wouldn’t really talk about it to people and I didn’t know what to do to get rid of it.

During the time where I had just left senior school and had joined college I created a Piczo website, like most teens, it had lots of photos on there (which was the main aim of your site) I even had a few comment boxes….I remember logging in one night and seeing some really abusive comments on there regarding my friends and the most upsetting was about me and my excess facial hair. To this day, I have never really told anyone how upset I was about this and just how much it still upsets me to remember seeing that and trying to work out who had written it, as I didn’t have a big circle of friends at the time so it had to be someone who was close to me a) because you have to personally know me to see it’s there and b) to know what spot to hit to upset me!

I think when those comments were written, I had just been diagnosed from my GP, he basically told me I had to go on the pill to regulate my hormones, have blood tests every 3 months to check my hormone levels and the worse part….to lose 4 stone. I remember working in a local café at the time and being quite open with my colleagues about it and joking that there was no way on this earth was I going to lose 4 stone!

I think around this point, I started self-waxing which is awful! I would never recommend anyone self-wax, especially not a delicate area such as your neck! It is painful (to begin with) and building the courage up to rip that wax strip off is a struggle and because you can never get them all it ends up looking uneven and you have to pluck more than you probably wax!

After being diagnosed and given some suggestions on how to move forward, I went on to celebrate my 18th Birthday in 2006 & in February/March 2007 I went on my first family holiday to Indianapolis. I remember really eating well and just enjoying myself! Around the same time I lost a lot of friends, due to growing up and drifting apart. I was lucky that I had made 2 really good friends at college, 1 of whom I still speak to and see A LOT of and the other unfortunately we just grew in different directions! They were very much my 2 stable people in my life, I was working full time at a low level admin job and I wanted a bit more, I wanted to progress. I managed to get a new job in July 2007 and I can remember saying to my mum “this is a fresh start, I want to do something about my weight and I want to join a slimming club”. My mum’s friend was going to Slimming World at the time and said I could along with her that week and that was it, I lost 3.5stone in 6 months, in December 2007 I was a size 14 and weighed about 11.5stone, I had a new circle of friends from my new job and yes, people did stare at my excess hair but I noticed the more weight I lost the slower it grew back and the lighter it grew back. FANTASTIC! I had managed to find a cure!

2008 – April/May – I got made redundant and embarked on what I can only describe as a mad first serious relationship! Luckily I managed to find a job within a couple of months (where I still am to this day!) however I can’t say the relationship lasted that long…thing 2 maybe 3 months?! The plus for me was that I was maintaining what I believed to be a healthy weight between 11.5stone -12stone, the hair was still growing slowly and lightish. I had also been on 2 holidays that year with Steph (the 1 friend from college I still speak to) and I was confident in the sun in a bikini, something I thought would never happen. I remember the weight kind of sneaked back on and I stayed around 12stone for about a year. In 2009 I embarked on the next car crash relationship – looking back now I was a complete idiot, in love with someone that didn’t love me back. Whilst wasting 6 months of my life, I started having electrolysis, god knows why, it was painful and the effects weren’t long lasting. Basically, the beautician puts a hot needle into the hair follicle to kill the hair at the root. It’s great if you are working on a small area, but my excess hair is pretty much the whole of my neck and chin, so she would only be able to do a small block at a time. When you are going twice a week and paying like £20 a time you really need to weigh up is it really worth it! I think I stopped having this done around May of 2009 and went back to self-waxing!

2009 was a mixed year for me the first 6 months were a waste (apart from a 2 week holiday to America) but the last 5 months were fantastic, I met Matt fell and love and haven’t looked back since. When I was put on the pill at the age of 17 I was never good a remembering to take it. How I haven’t fallen pregnant is beyond me! In late 2011 I went to see my GP and asked about other methods of contraception, mainly the Merina Coil. I remember her taking my weight and doing some blood tests, she told me that I had a little bit more weight to lose before she would consider me for the coil – so I went back when I was in between 10.5stone and 11stone and my GP was happy that my hormones were level and that I had pretty much cured my PCOS – I have to say the excess hair had pretty much stopped and when it did grow it was really light. So I had the coil fitted and I haven’t looked back since.

One bad thing is that since I have had the coil fitted, my weight (not due to the coil) has increased. Right now I weigh 12stone 11lb and my excess hair is back! So we are back to people staring if I leave it too long between waxes (I have a beautician now), I feel uncomfortable when I know that it’s there, I don’t feel sexy of confident when it’s there and I struggle with my self confidence in general the heavier I am. The hair isn’t light anymore – it is to begin with but if I leave it too long then it’s darker. I am back at slimming world and I am exercising regularly to help reduce my weight and the growth of my excess hair.

You may be wondering why I am sharing this with you tonight, but I want you to know that I have struggled and continue to struggle with this aspect of my life. Unfortunately, my excess hair will always be a part of me. It doesn’t change the person I am, if anything it has made me a bit more thick skinned. I would rather people don’t stare and that they ask what it’s all about, but I can’t force people to make that decision! I would be pleased to tell them that this is the only major side effect I have of PCOS – I am lucky I don’t have acne as I think I would rather cope with excess hair than acne.

Maybe you are reading this and can relate to some of my story – here is some information I have found online about possible symptoms of PCOS:

• irregular periods or no periods at all
• difficulty getting pregnant (because of irregular ovulation or failure to ovulate)
• excessive hair growth (hirsutism) – usually on the face, chest, back or buttocks
• weight gain
• thinning hair and hair loss from the head
• oily skin or acne

So as you can see, it’s not a walk in the park for people who suffer with PCOS! Yes, as well as excess hair there is acne, weight gain, irregular periods and I may also suffer with difficulties getting pregnant. This is something my GP has discussed with me before, I have been advised that if I can maintain a healthy weight and don’t leave it too late in life that I should have no issues in becoming pregnant. To be honest with you after knowing at the age of 17 that the later in life I leave it I may never become a mum, I have got used to it – it’s not something that bothers me anymore and if I can’t conceive naturally then I know there are other options available.

If you think you may have PCOS then go and visit your GP, talk to them about your symptoms and ask to have a blood test AND an ultrasound – the ultrasound is the most important as this will show up cysts in your ovaries! PCOS is most likely to develop in your late teens/early 20’s, so if you don’t think something is right – get it checked out!

When I was first diagnosed, I found a charity called Verity http://www.verity-pcos.org.uk/ I signed onto their forum and for about a year, it really helped me and got me to a good place in my life. I don’t use the website anymore and to be honest because I don’t feel that PCOS is a bad part of my life, it is just part of my life, I try not to dwell on it and I think if I did log on and talk about things, I would be only talking negatively and I would bring myself down.

The one thing I would like for you all to take from this is not to judge people on their appearance. Just because they may have a difference in their appearance to you or what you feel is the “norm” there is no need to stare or treat them differently.

Everyone has a story; why not take 5 minutes to hear theirs!

Emma xxx

Perfectly Pinned

So, for those of you that don’t know I am a MASSIVE Pinterest fan. I fell out of love with Pinterest for a couple of months in the run up to Christmas, but the love is back and stronger than ever!

You can follow me on Pinterest if you fancy, if you search for princessepink you will find me and all my thousands (and I mean that literally) of pins! There is everything from Nail Art to Travelling to Planning Family Parties – its all on there and I encourage you to take inspiration from my pins!

I have been pinning quite a bit over the last few days and I thought I would share my 5 favourite pins with you all!

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GENIUS

GENIUS


I pinned this a while ago, but I still love it! Whoever thought of this and was clever enough to get the photo is amazing! I had one of these cars when I was younger and would LOVE to be able to recreate this if I have children!

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How Does This Not Want To Make You Workout

How Does This Not Want To Make You Workout


This is 5 lbs of fat next to 5 lbs of muscle – makes me realise just how important it is every session I do at the gym and also how much weight loss on the scales doesn’t matter as its inches that helps you to lose dress sizes!

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May Designs Notebooks & Diaries

May Designs Notebooks & Diaries


I stumbled across these lovely looking notebooks and diaries on a instagram I follow and I thought I would browse through their website – some of their stuff is incredible! I emailed them and was gutted to find out that they don’t ship to the UK! I am debating on ordering a diary for next year to be delivered when I am on holiday in June!

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Christmas Bark

Christmas Bark


This pin has 2 things attached! Firstly I saw this and thought making Christmas Bark would be a great idea and I made Number 6 – it was really easy and I would definitely do it again! The second thing is the link to the website called Chickabug, the blog is fantastic it has a whole load of ideas for parties and gifts there is free printables as well!

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My Heart!

My Heart!


I often search for New York pins to see if there is anything new or hints and tips on there, I stumbled across this photo and it just melted my heart. The Chrylser building is my favourite building ever and I especially love it at night! For me the best place I have viewed it is Top Of The Rock Observation Deck – I cant wait to go back in June!

So there you go, those are my 5 favourite pins at the moment! Why don’t you take a peek at Pinterest and set yourself up a board and get pinning! You wont regret it….you just might become addicted!

Emma xxx