Family

So, Matt & I officially created a family whilst I have been away. We decided at the beginning of 2019 and that we wanted to start trying for a baby, if you have been following this blog for a while then you will know fertility has always been something I have worried about. However we were so bloody incredibly lucky as we fell pregnant within a couple of months of my contraceptive being removed.

Funnily enough I was pregnant when I caused the flood in the house, baby brain kicked in early for me haha! So how did we find out? It was my parents annual summer party and I was due on, I waited all day and it didnt happen, something then told me that I could be and I was really conscious about how much I drunk. That week following I started to notice some subtle changes in my body, signs I knew could be linked to pregnancy. I met up with one of my wonderful friends in London on 13th July and tried so hard to avoid drinking alcohol as I was a week late and just knew I was pregnant. The following day I told Matt I thought I was pregnant and took a test that had been in the cupboard for ages. It didn’t give a positive or a negative, we were so confused! I brought more when I went food shopping and took 2 at different stages that day & there was a positive result, it was faint but it was there.

Still unsure I took another one the following morning, it was a little darker but still not obvious. Unsure what was happening I spoke with my GP, he said that you cant get a false positive. He was sure I was pregnant and told me to wait until Friday to do another test. Matt & I spoke, we wanted to keep it secret until our scan just in case something happened, but agreed to tell our parents so they could support us. We told them the following day.

Friday came, I took another 2 tests, one being digital & there it was, strong as anything. I was pregnant, the only thing was I had to go to a hen weekend and avoid hot tubs and drinking….I managed it though!

I wont lie, the first 3 months were hellish. I was plagued with constant nausea, fatigue and hated that we were lying to everyone at social events. I wanted to talk to friends who had children for support, I found those 12 weeks really isolating and lonely especially when I had some spotting BUT I got through it and the reward of telling friends and family we were expecting was so joyful!

The rest of my pregnancy went by pretty smoothly, my sickness subsided, fatigue came back in the last trimester and heartburn didn’t start until the last few weeks. I enjoyed being pregnant, feeling our baby kick and wriggle about, I felt so connected to them throughout all of it. I went to relaxation classes and they kept me grounded and taught me such great techniques for labour. I wrote my birth plan and was so sure of what I wanted our delivery to be like.

I knew things weren’t going to go my way when I went over my due date. I ended up being induced stuck on a monitor and eventually having an emergency c section. Due to covid-19 Matt Matt couldn’t visit us when we stayed in hospital but since coming home life as 3 has been perfect.

We had a little girl at the beginning of April, weighing just over 9lb with a head of hair & looking just like her daddy!

We are so obsessed with our little bear and I constantly just watch in awe, thinking we created this little life, I grew this beautiful little baby & she is half of the 2 people that loves her the most!

I wish I had documented my pregnancy, so I could read back through it later with her. So we have a timeline of her first kick, first time I felt her hiccups, the first time we brought her something. We decided as a couple we didn’t want it on social media, we wanted to keep it private, that’s why this post is vague at times. We still haven’t shared her picture on social media & I am not sure we ever will. Please be assured that she is GORGEOUS!

We love her so much and I can’t believe she is here!

Emma x

It Takes A Village

Recently we celebrated my brothers 21st he had a big party with his nearest and dearest. It was lovely to see our family friends, people that have been there through our whole lives.

I have been reflecting on so many of the nice things people were saying about my brother that night and the kind words they said to me as well. I have taken a step back and when I think of everyone that was there that night and on my 21st, each and every one of them have helped my mum and dad mould my brother & I into the people we are today.

That saying it takes a village to raise a child is so true! My parents have been gifted with some phenomenal life long friends & our wider family is one of the closest I have encountered. All of those people have really helped to shape the people we have become.

I then realised that Matt & I are part of other peoples villages. We could and are shaping youngsters that are around us, impacting their lives, helping build their characters. Completely unknowingly we could be playing a part in what their future will be.

How magical is that!

When I think about raising a child, I look around who Matt & I have in our lives and who will be part of our village. I know that we have some of the most wonderful friends and family that we adore & I am confident our village will be the loudest, happiest, funniest & full of love – I cant wait.

But most of all, I hope our village when we need it, will be just like the one that has helped raise me. Because without every single member of the village that has surrounded me with love, I would not be who I am today.

I dont say it enough, but Thank-you!

Emma xxxx

Jump

Well its booked!

I am (weather permitting) jumping out of a plane on Monday 27th August! 3 days before my 30th Birthday what a great way to kick off the celebrations for my birthday, I honestly couldn’t of thought of anything better.

Am I nervous? Yes

Am I excited? Yes

I honestly cant wait and what makes it even better than some family and friends have decided to join me too and I am so honored that they would want to join me (well watch me). I always feel humbled when people make the choice to spend their time with me, I guess that is my lacking in confidence that causes that. Always shocked that people want to experience things with me – I dont know why, but hey I guess it makes me appreciate them all a little more!

Talking of my 30th Birthday, I have even arranged a meal with mine and Matt’s parents on my actual Birthday. We are going to Koh Thai Tapas in Southsea, its a gorgeous Thai restaurant and I adore the food not to mention the cocktails!

But I would love to do something with my friends as well, but what to do is where I am stumped.

Do I go for an evening of drinks and nibbles with some of our closest friends OR a girls day out in Brighton? 

I really dont know what to do, I still have a little while to choose as I would like to give people time to make sure they are free and arrange sitters, save up some money etc. So I figure I will decide by March I kinda want to do both, but that’s really greedy! I need to think about what I will enjoy the most and that if I do one and not the other that I wouldn’t have any regrets.

I am sure I will figure it out and I will arrange something or perhaps someone could do it for me haha!

Love

Emma xx

Memories

Whilst updating my Dropbox the other day, I found some pictures that I had forgotten about and thought it would be a nice idea to share with you some of my favourite pictures of 2017!