So, Matt & I officially created a family whilst I have been away. We decided at the beginning of 2019 and that we wanted to start trying for a baby, if you have been following this blog for a while then you will know fertility has always been something I have worried about. However we were so bloody incredibly lucky as we fell pregnant within a couple of months of my contraceptive being removed.
Funnily enough I was pregnant when I caused the flood in the house, baby brain kicked in early for me haha! So how did we find out? It was my parents annual summer party and I was due on, I waited all day and it didnt happen, something then told me that I could be and I was really conscious about how much I drunk. That week following I started to notice some subtle changes in my body, signs I knew could be linked to pregnancy. I met up with one of my wonderful friends in London on 13th July and tried so hard to avoid drinking alcohol as I was a week late and just knew I was pregnant. The following day I told Matt I thought I was pregnant and took a test that had been in the cupboard for ages. It didn’t give a positive or a negative, we were so confused! I brought more when I went food shopping and took 2 at different stages that day & there was a positive result, it was faint but it was there.
Still unsure I took another one the following morning, it was a little darker but still not obvious. Unsure what was happening I spoke with my GP, he said that you cant get a false positive. He was sure I was pregnant and told me to wait until Friday to do another test. Matt & I spoke, we wanted to keep it secret until our scan just in case something happened, but agreed to tell our parents so they could support us. We told them the following day.
Friday came, I took another 2 tests, one being digital & there it was, strong as anything. I was pregnant, the only thing was I had to go to a hen weekend and avoid hot tubs and drinking….I managed it though!
I wont lie, the first 3 months were hellish. I was plagued with constant nausea, fatigue and hated that we were lying to everyone at social events. I wanted to talk to friends who had children for support, I found those 12 weeks really isolating and lonely especially when I had some spotting BUT I got through it and the reward of telling friends and family we were expecting was so joyful!
The rest of my pregnancy went by pretty smoothly, my sickness subsided, fatigue came back in the last trimester and heartburn didn’t start until the last few weeks. I enjoyed being pregnant, feeling our baby kick and wriggle about, I felt so connected to them throughout all of it. I went to relaxation classes and they kept me grounded and taught me such great techniques for labour. I wrote my birth plan and was so sure of what I wanted our delivery to be like.
I knew things weren’t going to go my way when I went over my due date. I ended up being induced stuck on a monitor and eventually having an emergency c section. Due to covid-19 Matt Matt couldn’t visit us when we stayed in hospital but since coming home life as 3 has been perfect.
We had a little girl at the beginning of April, weighing just over 9lb with a head of hair & looking just like her daddy!
We are so obsessed with our little bear and I constantly just watch in awe, thinking we created this little life, I grew this beautiful little baby & she is half of the 2 people that loves her the most!
I wish I had documented my pregnancy, so I could read back through it later with her. So we have a timeline of her first kick, first time I felt her hiccups, the first time we brought her something. We decided as a couple we didn’t want it on social media, we wanted to keep it private, that’s why this post is vague at times. We still haven’t shared her picture on social media & I am not sure we ever will. Please be assured that she is GORGEOUS!
We love her so much and I can’t believe she is here!