Confidence

You have probably noticed my silence over the past few weeks, its not because I have had writers block or I have forgotten about my blog. We have been on our first proper holiday since buying the house, we have been in Cuba!

This post isn’t directly about Cuba though, although I am sure I will write one of those soon. Whilst we were sat at the snack bar on our last full day, I was just in my bikini and a tank top, which sat on my hips I realized that for the past 2 weeks at no point have I cared what I looked like. I haven’t thought about how I look in my bikini, I haven’t given any thought as to how my hair looks when I take my hat off, also I have spent most evenings with just a sweep of mascara on my face and nothing else.

Looking around the pool and the beach everyone, myself included, looks confident in their bodies. No one gives the allusion that they care what they look like, its like you step off that plane and all your insecurities are banished.

I mentioned this to Matt and he said to me that it was great that I had felt that way, but if i can feel like that here why cant i feel like that at home? I have been wondering the same….

Well we have been back in the UK now for about a week & there is no way I could be as free here as I was on holiday. I am not sure if you feel the same, but there seems to be a constant need her to look a certain way. I stupidly read a lot of crappy celebrity news articles and do you know what I realized the other day, 99.9% of them are about someones weight, image, clothing etc. so no wonder us normal folk  are so self conscious! Our news, social media feeds, TV & magazines are littered with how celebs look and how we should look.

I don’t buy magazines any more, but stupidly I did in the airport waiting to board to go on holiday. What a stupid decision that was – I should have spend the £5 on magazines on a book! It was littered with articles about celebs and how they look on holiday, a celebrity that lost 10lbs in 2 weeks to get back to pre-pregnancy weight, then in the next breath they are telling you how empowered we should be about our natural bodies and we should need to lose weight, wear make up etc. how confusing is that! No wonder we are awash with insecurities and judgement for others as well as ourselves.

I cant help but question why we don’t just accept ourselves for who we are and not judge ourselves and each other!

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Cuba

It was a normal Tuesday morning, I checked my “memories” on Facebook and noticed back in 2012 I had uploaded our photos from our trip to Cuba. Looking back at them made me sad, we loved Cuba. It was our first visit to the caribbean, my first long haul all inclusive holiday, our 3rd holiday together. We ate great food, drunk great booze, snorkeled, swam with dolphins and learnt about the beautiful country and met just a handful of amazing people.

We came home promising to return one day, fast forwarding to 2017 and we still haven’t gone back.

Whilst we dabble in holidays and often will look at the deals, recently Cuba has been coming up cheap but we just overlooked it, trying to find cheap deals to Vancouver or Vietnam. Before residing ourselves (hence my comments in a previous post), that due to stuff needing to be done with the house we just wouldn’t be holidaying in 2018.

Then, that Tuesday morning I was talking about above, I get into work getting stuck in to getting stuff done before going on Annual Leave & I get a call. Its Matt. I panic, whats happened, is he ok? He tells me to check my emails……

The content just says whoops and there is an attachment, its confirming a booking…..to Cuba in 168 days.

Shut The Front Door!

I didn’t know whether to laugh or cry. I get off the phone and am dumbfounded. I am going on holiday, to Cuba. Where we stayed all those years ago. I literally cannot wait and am super excited.

Then a couple of hours later, I start to worry…..how am I gonna afford it……I will be officially skint until we return in May especially as I have Matt’s surprise birthday trip in January!

Anyway, to get you guys as excited as me, here are a few pics from last time!

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Paradise…..

Hello Everyone!

Me and Matt have been reminiscing over the last week or so, as this time a year ago we were in Guardlavca in Cuba. It was paradise – I can honestly say that I have never seen bluer sea’s or whiter sand. It was the most relaxing 2 weeks I have ever had!

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We stayed at Playa Costa Verde, it was a beach front hotel – although it was a big hotel, it had a community feel. We would see the same people at dinner and the bar each night and around the pool and at the pool bar during the day. All of the staff were so incredibly friendly and it honestly felt like they could not do enough for you!

When we booked to go to Cuba, Matt kept saying “we have to take gifts for the children, we have to take medicine for them” and I was so dismissive because in my mind I was on holiday and I wanted to relax not do a charity mission! However, Matt dismissed me and still went ahead and got things to take for the people of Cuba and my god was I glad he did! After speaking with a few staff members and travel reps, I realised that compared to our way of life they have virtually nothing, so to be able to give them something other than a tip in money was very rewarding.

We did several trips during our stay and a year down the line 2 of them stick out for me; a Catamaran trip and Swimming with Dolphins. During the Catamaran trip, we had a traditional Cuban Lunch, Snorkelling off the Boat (never been so scared in all my life!), Horse Riding & just swimming in the clear blue sea. It was such a beautiful place and soooo relaxing! There is a stunning video of the catamaran ride back in the sunset which is stunning.

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The Dolphin Trip was a trip of a lifetime. I can honestly say it was the most amazing experience of my whole life, if you are planning on going to Cuba or anywhere that you can swim with the dolphins I would definitely recommend you do it, you will not regret it. I was shocked at how big and strong they are and also how intelligent. The tricks we did with then, there was a certain on where you had to be stood up in the water (harder said than done) and they would swim up to you and if you weren’t stood correctly they would just swim off…..how do they know! It was a fantastic experience and they were very well looked after also – the enclosures were all natural and in proper sea water, there was no glass enclosures, just fencing to the sea bed. There was a mumma and a baby in their own enclosures and if the dolphin didn’t want to go into the enclosure to “work” that day, they didn’t make it. The one thing that did upset me, is that the Cuban people don’t get to enjoy this experience, it is solely for holiday makers, which I thought was quite unfair!

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I just wanted to share with you, where my thoughts are at the moment. I can honestly say I would love to go back in a heartbeat!

So what are you waiting for? book your holiday!

Much Love

xxx