Today I am feeling like a negative Nancy! I have no reason to be at all, Matt & I celebrated our 6 year anniversary last night (and he was late just like he was 6 years ago!). However, for some reason I just feel a bit meh….
I am not liking my body or the fact that I have been “off plan” for the last week, I don’t like my hair and can’t decide if I want to grow it or cut it. I’m annoyed that I have limited funds and all my money is going into savings (but I am saving for a house). I think I am just in a really negative moany mood and I HATE it! I hate being a moaner and being negative, it doesn’t get you anywhere and you never achieve anything so why does it happen!
I am a big emotional eater, so normally I would sit here with naughty food and use that to comfort me. Instead, I have cleaned off my nails, cut them down put on a really upbeat cheesy movie and am going to sit here and paint my nails. I am also considering having a FB break as I find that can really get on my nerves as people just like to moan to the high heavens on there. Maybe a complete social media cut – wow, I did that before, not sure I could do it again!
I think part of my negative Nancy mood is because I am not feeling good enough. I had such an amazing experience on Friday (more of that to come later) that really boosted my confidence and self worth, but today I just feel like anyone could do a better job than me at everything. I guess that is one of my big insecurities that I need to learn to overcome and have the confidence in myself that actually NO ONE can do a better job than I can and that I am the best person to being whatever it is & to stop beating myself up. I touched upon my body earlier and that is all my doing, no one forces me to eat badly or sneak one of my dad’s wine gums or a biscuit out the barrel. I am the root of my failure there and can only blame myself. So what am I going to do to correct it?