I am laid in bed TV on, watching my partner & baby girl sleep – life couldn’t feel more normal if it tried.
This weekend has been the first weekend in a long time that things have felt normal. We have spent time with friends & family, ate good food, had a sneaky glass of wine or 2 and enjoyed life as a family of 3.
We should have spent at least 1 day this weekend at Southsea Food Festival, it wasn’t meant to be this year. We did manage to have some quality family time at Southsea today though. We took Bella to 10th Hole, sat outside and enjoyed some lunch – it felt normal, even though there was social distancing measures in place (which I want to assure you we adhere to). We then took a stroll along the seafront, again keeping our distance but it felt GOOD. It felt nice to be out just us 3, in the sun, without a care in the world.
My friend asked me yesterday if I felt back to myself yet? I thought it was a strange question, but its played on my mind since and I wondered what that feeling of being back to myself was. Something has definitely felt different this week, I have felt more settled, more organised and a bit more in control of our weekday life. I have come to terms with the fact that my maternity leave isn’t going to be the way I thought, I am starting to soak up and enjoy it for what it is. So I don’t feel back to myself as myself is someone new, my priorities are different, my needs and wants are different, my body is different. I am however happy with the new me and what I can do, who I am and how my life had changed.
Our lives are different now, not just because we have had our gorgeous little girl, but because the world is different now. So for anyone going through big life changes at the moment, be a bit more kinder to yourself. You not only are having to learn how to live differently due to a global pandemic but you are also learning how to live differently due to life changes that are happening to you.